FINLANDIA: To Athena - Angscht

Skrt: od 2.11

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Fear
Especially, I am afraid that something breaks that won't stick anymore
Neither with superglue nor with time
But especially, I am afraid
Especially, I am afraid

I'll go for a walk with myself until I can't find it anymore
It has hidden itself away to the child inside of me that plays hide and seek
I keep on hovering without foundation
Try to find it for hours
The weeks pile up to age rings in my mind

Fear
Especially, I am afraid
That I really can't find myself anymore, and if I am actually there, I am blind
But especially, I am afraid
Especially, I am afraid
Especially, I am afraid that something breaks that won't stick anymore
Neither with superglue nor with time
But especially, I am afraid
Especially, I am afraid

The pictures of this terrific self in all those hundreds of minds
Of all the people that although they heard me
Can't understand what I want
I have never met myself and that's why I belief in the description
Of myself that people gave me as a substitute
Or otherwise I would not be me

And I am afraid
Especially, I am afraid
That something breaks that won't stick anymore
Neither with superglue nor with time but especially, I am afraid
Especially, I am afraid
That I really can't find myself anymore,
And if I am actually there, I am blind
But especially, I am afraid
Especially, I am afraid

I have never made a judgement about me myself
And still, I stand there without words and look on all the felled forests
And I don't have the courage to move myself inside this perfect flower arrangement
Because else, a seed could sprout that would fight against the self

And I am afraid
Especially, I am afraid
That something breaks that won't stick anymore
Neither with superglue nor with time but especially, I am afraid
Especially, I am afraid
That I really can't find myself anymore, and if I am actually there, I am blind
But especially, I am afraid.